TLDR; missed medications, withdrawal, new relationship We've spent about 7 or 8 days together now and he still wants me. I stayed up at his house for an extra 2 days for the sake of his doggy and me not wanting to make him drive that hour and back with his herniated discs. That was … Continue reading I’ll never be loved again. That’s a lie.
I'm a fine ass motherfucka at recovery I got this right I'm all right because I been to the bottom and I never imagined I'd ever vibe and be rational at the same time it's some heavy spiritual awakening shit but sorry New Agers I couldn't have survived without my pharmaceutical medicine so you can … Continue reading Riding this vibe
(I wrote this when I was only 21) Released on August 20th, 1996, through Roadrunner Records, the self-produced October Rust by Type O Negative is without a doubt my favorite album of all-time. Although it has been reviewed hundreds of times over the past thirteen years, I felt an overwhelming desire to compose the most … Continue reading October Rust by Type O Negative 🥀🍂🍃
It is quarter of 5 AM as I write this, which is hardly unusual for me as I've had a sleep disorder most of my life. Which developed first, the sleep disorder or the bipolar disorder? Or are they one in the same? Studies think so. I had an especially unpleasant sleep/wake cycle yesterday. I … Continue reading Wisdom is a vine that never stops growing
I went through with it, after all. This is my first time doing spoken word poetry. I can't believe how natural it ended up being for me despite my social anxiety. https://youtu.be/W5X0Ji3jHew
I know typing that feels premature, even after successfully deleting (and not just deactivating) my accounts. But as any addict has thought a thousand times before, I can't do this anymore. I kept knowingly continuing to torture myself under the guise of hope, but after tonight, after enough years of trying, I should know all … Continue reading Tonight, I quit online dating forever